My Holiday...

Super disappointed with my own holiday... M i really enjoyin it at all? I've got 2months... but my real holiday... not so long...

Almost 2 weeks back home... Did almost nothing... Bored... Don't know what i'm doing... Clueless... Freaking ridiculous! Not interesting at all... I'm bored, but busy. Busy but not very busy... There are many things that i wish to do... But i feel like there's no momentum in me... No energy... I just don't feel like doing anything...

The worthless feeling... making my life miserable... More and more miserable each day...

I feel like screaming up to my lungs! Can i do that? ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe this is what ppl call the stress unseen! This kind of holiday! I don't fancy at all!

Thursday, 25th June 2009

7 pm today, mummy and daddy left for kl... They are going off for their ...th honeymoon. They deserve it after all these years of hard work...

Envy... They are both goin to fly MAS Business class all the way to London... Then all the way to Barcelona... How i wish i could fly business class too... :)

May God bless them abundantly and grant them a safe&mercy journey to their destination :)

I LOVE THEM!!! THEY ARE THE BEST PARENTS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!

Love,
Lynn

Eating machine...

I feel like an eating machine since the day i came back... Eat and eat non-stop... Owh... Nvr heard that stomach hungry grumbling sound anymore... I'm so gonna gain so much weight when i go back... Argh...

Mummy was very happy to see me... Since the day i set my aim, i've lose 5kgs... 5 More to go at least to reach target... But i'm thinking of 10 more! Cos i can do all things through Christ that strengthens me! Yay!

Other than that, i had a miserable day yesterday... But i'm ok... I should be able to sort things out soon... I duno what i'm gonna do yet... But i'm fine.. I should be fine... 船到桥头自然直！Trust in the LORD!

I hope i can live my life to the fullest... Use my summer hols to the fullest... Mission trip, working, spend valueable time with family, studies, hometask...etc.

Please do pray for me ya ;) TQ.

Love,
Lynn

1st day back home in Kuantan

Reached home on Saturday 20th June 2009, at 5pm. ate dinner, meet one of mum friend's daughter, then went out with family for car tour...

1st day back home on Sunday... Father's day today... Didn't do much for dad... feel a lil guilty oso ler... Cos i didn't even noticed that it's Father's day today... Argh... Stupid me!

Went to church in the morning, helped out giving gifts to all parents... After church, met up wit Jin Jin and her mother... We went out for lunch together... Oh my... So full... Gosh.. i'm so gonna gain so much weight... Haiz...


Had dinner wit family.. nyum nyum... Bird nest soup... owh... Home = heaven on earth!

Super tired... Shouldn't have jet lag though... somehow... can't sleep till 5am.. Missing people... Haiz... Ended up watching drama till 5am... Until i slept... unconsciously...

Good to be home... Live like princess... But of course i miss all my friends! :)

Love,
Lynn

Fantastic day Full of blessings & mercy...

Monday, 15th June 2009.

A memorable day... A day where i officially completed my 1st year medical course.

Started out with love & care, proceed with rush and absent-minded, followed up by blessings, peace&mercy, ended with gratitude, gladness & tiredness.

1st and foremost, Thanks to Charmaine, Charis, Chien, Peh Yee & Paul for teaching me General Chemistry... They are angels sent by God.

Thanks to Paul for the hot water. Thanks to Charis & Charmaine for keeping my stuffs and bringing it back from Study Room.

Thanks to Charmaine, Chien & Charis for punching metro & Bus pass for me...

Ultimately... Thank God for every single blessings, every single angels, every mercy and grace He poured down on me... Every blood He shed for me...
Without God i won't exist. Without God i won't have such nice friends that had helped me tremendously... Thank God for everything...

All Glory to God... My report book(zachootnaya Kniga) has... hmm... let me see... The BEST result in my whole life! Wow! It's really total blessings from God. Without Him, nothing is possible... I had all High Distinction (5) except Biology - Distinction (4). Whooray!!!!!! I believe that my results will improve each year by His grace, glory & mercy! AMEN!

To all my frens... Thanks a lot for everything that you've done for me... From the deepest core of my heart... I'm saying, 'Thank you very much my friends'. I love all of you so much... Friendship forever!

All the 1st year coursemates... Congratulations upon your completion of 1st yr course. Proceeding to our 2nd year just means more obstacles... More stress.. More white hair... More exams... SALUTE TO ALL DOCTORS & DOCTORS TO BE!

Good luck to everyone... Wishing you all, all the best in everything you do, good health & good wealth!

Love,
Lynn

Friday (12th June 2009)

5 More days and i'm goin home for summer holiday! Haiz... PMS... Mood swing... Hormone imbalance... Messed up...

Shifted some things to M2 today... Thanks to Ira, Nalny, Vishi(My friends in M2 that helped me so much). Charmaine, Gan, Charis, Paul(Friends in M1 that helped me tremendously). Thanks to everyone that helped out... Really appreciate it a lot...

Things lately... Ups and downs... and i'm always the contra one... Helpless... Hormones are taking control... I don't wanna giv up but sometimes, when i tried to hard and nothing is working... I eventually give in to circumstances... i try to keep my cool, not responding so that non will get hurt... but... haiz... nvm... Perhaps... These are not so important after all...

When damages are made... They'll leave behind wounds... No matter how hard u try to heal it.... U'll still have scars... It's something one can't change...

Things are different for me... How others treat me... I see them well... Those that treat me well, i'll treat them 7times better(written in the bible), those who treat me bad, i'll just ignore them... Won't treat them bad but won't treat them well either. God says love your enemies... Yea... ENEMIES! They're not my enemies... They're simply my friends that wear masks! Changing their masks all the time to suit the condition! Hey! I'm not stupid! I can't see that u are wearing a mask. Take it off... U don't have to pretend... Just be urself... I can except whatever behind the mask! Stop irritating me with ur pretentious character... I dislike pretentious ppl... Treat u nice in front of everyone, but when we r alone together... It's another story...

I should say, we do not deserve each other...

When the world is turning 1 degree every 4 mins, we are changing too... For better or for worst... We decide, but GOD leads! Trust in Him! He'll give us great and marvellous things we don't know of.

Stay blessed folks!

Love,
Lynn

混乱

No1 remembers...

听到别人说的一句话。。。深想一层，是我态度有问题吗？

受欢迎的人，不可能理解。。。

虽然我很出名，很多人认识但这并不代表我很受人欢迎吧。。。

从小就有这个问题的存在。

我虽然一心一意对待别人，但是人们就不能接受事实。非想歪一边不可。。。

一心一意不忘回报。。。 很难吧。。。 有时我也做不到。。。有时候甚至要说服自己，不管别人怎么看，怎么想，别人怎么对待自己，只要对得起天地良心，对得起自己，就ok了。真的那么简单吗？
不可能时时刻刻都那么伟大吧。。。

可能是荷尔蒙又来作怪了。。。可能是累了吧。。。 好烦哦！！！

没有收获的付出，有的人认为很笨，有的认为很伟大，嗨。。。 我也搞不清楚。。。

所以。。。 混乱。。。神啊救救我吧！！！

Love,
Lynn

How OTHERS celebrate MY birthday for ME?

Hmm... Before this was how i celebrated it myself.. And now... My frens...

Firstly, i was forced to eat 2nd meal in 30mins in the Pushkin Canteen. The food was nice.. Except the liver... Ooowh... Gosh.. Dun wanna talk about it... Thought it was steak though... Urghh...

After meal... I was heading back to room, stopped by Charis and Charmaine saying that Chien's having stomachache, went to the toilet near to the canteen... Want me to wait for her no matter wat... Ok... Didn't suspect anything yet... but later, they went into the toilet and said that Chien is having diarrhea, i asked if she needs toilet paper and they told me that it's provided inside... Wow.. Since when Pushkin has toilet paper in the toilet ya? Fishy... BAD ANSWER!

Hahaha... Later, Charis accidentally opened the auditorium door. I hear birthday song... Opps... Cat was let out of the bag... Hahaha... I was lead into the auditorium... Dark... Then, light was on, Gan playing birthday song on the piano, Chia Zhen playing on guitar, Peh Yee holding my cake... Every1 was so lost... Then later on they start to sing birthday song... Ehm... Ok... Hahaha... Anyway, it was so sweet of you all. Thank you.

Was being disturbed as usual during birthdays in Pushkin! It's like a tradition... Was asked to play a song on the piano... No idea wat to play... Ended up playing 'Canon in D'. After tat, Paul was all of a sudden drag into the prank... Kesian him. After the piano session, here comes the vodka... More like juice... They were just being lenient cos we are having physics final today. Hahaha.... Thanks for tat. However, i didn't finish it. I had half of it, and the other half thanks to Paul. Haha... Kesian Him once again...

2nd part of my 'surprise' was held in Pushkin Park. At 1st was treasure hunt... Where i found my things missing in the morning. Asked every1, no1 admitted anything... worst of all... Was scolded by Charis.. Sob sob... I've been bullied!!!

Last thing hanging on the tree was a present by my roomies, Charmaine, Charis, & Chien. Thanks for the lovely watch... I love it! And it's in white! A bit difficult to keep it clean but i'll try my best to preserve it's ori colour! Hehehe...

Later on, i was tied to a tree, blind folded. Got cream session of course... what else... The funniest thing was someone asked me why m i so quiet... Ehm... Being bullied, what else can i do? Scream meh?!?! Then later i got untied, unfold, every1 disappeared... Haha... And thank you Chia Zhen and Jasper who untied me. Thank you Paul for the flowers. Thanks a lot everyone for the 'GREAT' plan...

I was all creamy, slippery, dirty, in worst condition one could ever expect. Chill, i won't take revenge... Just... you all are so going to spend ur birthday celebration dull and ordinary... Nth special... Hahaha.... ;p

Hugged Charmaine, charis and chien, all of them were dirty like me... Wahaha... Plus who else... Matthew kena in the lift, so did Chia Zhen and Sharon... Aww... So sad... Go do your laundry la... Hahaha... Kesiannya...

Went to bathroom, washed my hair like 3times and still smell like cream... Haiz... Smelled like cream for the whole day... Nyummy...

So tired, slept, woke up then study and prepare for physics afto presentation. There goes my birthday...

Thanks to everyone who participated in the planning and my surprise party. It was indeed surprising! Thanks for spending time even during final exams period. Thanks... Let me try to name each of you here...

My roomies : Charis, Charmaine, Chien
1st Yrs: Chia Zhen, Jasper, Sharon, Paul, Matthew(cameraman), Peh Yee, Gan, Jerome, Zhi Ren, Tracy, John, Zi Hao, Kelvin.

2nd yrs: Marcus, Jacinta, Andrew, James, BC, Jien Wey.

I hope i didn't miss anyone.. Thanks for coming even with notes in your hands... Thanks... It meant a lot to me... Thank you for all the presents... The heart shaped card by my bed, Thank you!

Thank you once again.

Love,
Lynn

how I celebrate MY birthday for ME!

How I celebrate MY birthday for ME?

I had a pre birthday celebration by watching 22episodes of HK drama. Fantastic huh? What a treat. 22 epi in less than 15hrs. Phew... I'm a drama queen.

Had some nice treat of can food for dinner at 9sth 10. Wow... Delicious... nyum nyum... With spaghetti noodles.

Got some good kisses from my roomies... Nice... So sweet of them.

Slept at 4am after reply a whole bunch of smses. So sweet of my friends to remember my birthday... So touched... Thank you everyone!

Went to bed... Woke up at 11am tis morning... Had a birthday bath treat! With ice cold water!!! Freezing while bathing... Then feel hot when i come out... Wahaha... Thanks to Pushkin for shutting off the hot water supply.... Paid so much for rental... but yet... Stupid Pushkin so kedekut! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not angry... Chill... Of course i'm chilled... Bath ice cold water can angry meh? Can get migrain only ma! Hahahahaha....

I better go grab my breakfast.. Hehehe... Mocha! Nyum nyum... Tasty!

Love,
Lynn