I'm climbing the mountain now! Reaching a higher peak for GOD!

I've been through the valley with God... Was sad, emotionally unstable, mentally tired, physically unable to focus..etc. Life was tough... Many have seen me dragging myself through! But all had passed. I successfully cling on to God trust in Him and now i'm climbing the mountain! Reaching for the higher peak for HIM! For His glory! Thank God! All Glory to God. This peak is higher than the ones before! Please continue to pray for me so that i remain is His realm with strength, and may the momentum that i've just regained continue to bring strength to my Walk With God... Everyday a new day! Everyday a renewed strength!

Love u all so much! Thanks for the prayers!

Love,
Lynn

Contented!

Nice weather today... Cooling but not too cold, not snowing, not sunny... just nice...

Didn't have lunch cos actually planned to eat in the Pushkin Canteen but too many people... lazy to wait... so i ended up not eating anything... just a bit of cheese and a lil leftover yogurt drink.

However, i was in the mood to cook today cos promised Charmaine to cook for her... 祸从口出！haha... But i try to keep my promise as much as i could.. To everyone around me... So we had herbal soup noodles with kei ji, red dates and chicken for dinner, and herbal 药材汤for supper! Hehehe... many ppl falling sick. we have to stay healthy cos exams coming our way!!!

Gen chem exam on thurs, Anat MCQ on thursday, Histo MCQ on thurs, the following week is HISTOLOGY　1st Exam! Beware!

Please pray for us for good results and god health! Thank you!

Love,
Lynn

Goodbye to my masterpiece!

sobsob... Goodbye my dear masterpiece! Chien... How could you?!?!

Can i handle the stress?

My sis is right! It would be a burden to me. Now i realize what my sis said is true, but how can i handle this? What will i do next? I myself don't have answers to these questions from my heart... Although i know i should do something, but what is it? What should i do?

All these problems that i'm facing is part and parcel of a student's life. I'm pretty sure i'm not the only one having stress. Everyone has it. It's just they way they look at it, treat it, and manage themselves... Perhaps i'm really a horrible person in self-management and stress management. I don't know for sure, but i know that no matter what happens, God will be with me. He'll strengthen me! Thank God!

I've asked this before in my blog, am i a lousy friend? I surely know that i'm a noisy friend, but am i a lousy friend? How lousy and how bad am i? I need to improve myself, but i don't know how, need friends to help i think... Will you my friends help me???

Thanks... Waiting for feedbacks. Just feel free to respond. Although i might felt encouraged or discouraged by your feedbacks, it doesn't matter. I'll recover from it! So go ahead! Knock yourself off!

Love,
Lynn

不一样！

每当我心情不好时我会选择睡觉。通常起来后心情都会有好转。今天不一样。睡了很久心情还是很糟！看来这次需要很长的时间才能复原吧。。。我该怎么办呢？我的选择是否正确？我是不是又做错了？神啊救救我吧！我真的不知道我能承受多久！海。。。

Is God trying to mould me, test me or...? All i can do now i pray for the strength of God, healing, and recovery...

Sorry Charmaine...

对不起!今天把你骂了一顿!真的对不起!你是唯一被我骂后再道歉的人!从来没有!就你一个!你真了不起哟!没关系. 只要你活得开心,不介意了!

放心吧！从今天开始，我会慢慢学习少管，少理，少看，少说，反正是少就对了！

Charmaine 的要求，Lynn 会尽量配合，尽量办到就是了！

Love,
Lynn

...

I don't even know what to put as title... Speechless.

Just when i care... U pushed me aside, when u r sick, i'm there for u, but when u recover u live a superbly 'healthy' life. What should i say? When i scold you for it, you smile at me and say u know. I know that you know it's unhealthy! But why doing it? Huh? U haven't even fully recovered yet! Can you take care of yourself? I'm very worried! You haven't recovered yet and you are doing this already! What happens if today or tomorrow ur migraine comes back? 你很坏！我很想继续教训你！但是你一幅笑容，我真不忍心。想一想，如果一天你病倒了，不能继续你的梦想，你对得起对你期望这么高的家人吗？尤其你父母亲！你怎么向他们交待？

算了吧。这是你的生活。我也不该多事！以你所愿！随你便吧！可能是我太多事了。在这向你说声对不起！

Hungry me...

Woke up felt hungry and i remembered i didn't eat anything much yesterday. Morning(4am)-Instant noodles, 10am a few pieces of cookies, off to bio class and nothing else eaten for the rest of the day. Came back frustrated so took a few bites on cookies again and went to sleep.
Woke up half an hour ago feeling hungry and i saw the eggs on my table. Thank you Chien for the egg, and Charmaine for the note. Thank you Charis for the noodles too... Thanks for filling my stomach my dear friends!

Love you all lots!

Lynn

Woke up never the same again...

I gave a deep thought over what happened yesterday during my test, and after my test. Am i a Moron? Yes i truly m! I won't deny that! I didn't try my best maybe. I was oversleeping! Even after Drinking coffee...

I woke up never the same again. Even if i give up and go back to Malaysia. Lynn is never the same Lynn 3 yrs back. I am the ME now. Irreversible. Moscow had changed me so much! Even me myself couldn't believe that. Things that i'm facing in mocsow. The Problems i face, the miserable life, the enjoyment, the laughter, the tears....etc. I M CHANGED! I'll never be the same again... Sorry mummy and daddy, i've failed to do my best... but i'll continue to try although you all always tell me,'it's enough to get a pass as long as you don't fail!' Thanks, but if i just get a pass and don't care about my results, i'm the old me. Now that i'm different. It's almost impossible for me to score a pass and that's it! Studying in Moscow is not about getting a pass. Getting pass is so easy, Scoring sky high is the difficult part. I'll try my best to score all the High Distinctions (5) i could for God and for my parents! For all those who cares for me!

Thanks for your support! I love you all!

Love,
Lynn

Why is my life so miserable???

I had my biology exam today on Zooparasitology! Fantastic. I know the answers, i answered, but my dear teacher Galena kept saying that i'm wrong. I think she was too busy attending to too many students then! What on earth?!?! When she told me the answer! OH MY GOD! I feel like slapping her right on the spot! She want name, she ask for characteristics! How the hell i know what to answer if she asked something and expected answers of a totally different aspect? How do you relate Characteristics with name of the part? Superb! She's just 1 fantastic manipulator!

Not 1, but so many questions! At the end of the day, she asked me,' Why didn't you learn your materials? It's very bad!' Did i not learned my materials or did you not asked the right questions?

I'm so sad over it! 心痛死了！Felt like giving up studying medicine right now! In the metro, my tears just couldn't stop rolling down... It felt like as if someone just pierce my heart with a knife... That kind of feeling can't be described by words!

Another thing struck me right on the heart! Wow fantastic! Struck me hard! Couldn't even believe that it's happening! Nice... Nice work! I love you so much! My heart was just broken into bits and pieces today! My day couldn't turn out worst! Really.... Thank God that i'm still alive? Praise the Lord! Man... I'll have anatomy tomorrow... I don't know how m i suppose to do it. no mood to study at all... Galena just pierce my heart and someone else just took it and threw it on the ground... Now i'm all wounded. hungry till stomach not feeling quite well, but just don't feel like eating. Maybe i'm just turning around the bushes too much, but if i don't know anything at all, giv me a 3 and i'll shut up! Now that i know the answers to all those questions but i still get a 3 and a nice phrase from her! Discouraging! I seriously feel like strangling myself now!

Sad sad de... But now ok d lu...

When i woke up just now, i was a little sad. Cos i over slept AGAIN! i was suppose to wake up in 15mins but ended up sleeping for 1hr++. I hate myself very much then.

However, everything turn for the better just a couple hours later. I'm looking forward for better things from God! His ways are perfect and Just! His plans are to prosper us and not perish us. Trust in the Lord, for He who is in Me is greater than He who is on earth!

Stay blessed! Get encouraged! Stay strong! We can do it together!

Love,
Lynn

I duno how to describe me today...

I'm not very sad or very happy. I tried my best to give the best part of me today. I tried to control my mood. I'm not being emo really... Maybe i'm just mentally tired of all these craps! It's really sickening people and sickening situation i'm facing everyday.

I feel like giving up and going back to Malaysia right now without a word. I wish i could do that... I want to scream up to my lung's content! Laugh, scream, shout...whatever it takes. Suppressed feelings are really bad for health.

I don't know what else to do. I tried my best to not keep my friends worried. I know some of them are. They knew something is wrong with me, but they kept my privacy by not asking what happened. Thank you for your understanding! Some things can't be expressed verbally! They can be feel, can be seen but just difficult to be told.

Things are going so wrong for me now. Is God testing my faith now? Is it that i'm now just luke warm and not hot for Jesus like i was before? Will i be able to be like what my friends described me? Strong girl that is stronger than anyone else they've met? I may pretend to be ok. Look ok, strong...etc. but 'a strong person' will not be able to stay strong all the time. Only a robot could be strong all the time with no battery limits though!

Tough life are meant to nurture strong souls. But how far could i go? Will i pass or fail? Can i persevere through all these? Am i the chosen one? Am i fit for the test?

All these answers... we'll need to wait for the time to come... Only we'll know...

Thanks to my friends(just to name a few) Charmaine, Chien, John, Mahes, Tee...etc I'm ok. Broken heart + so much more, just need some time to recover. unless someone try to pour salt over my wound, i should recover soon with the strength of God.

Stay blessed!

Love,
Lynn

Y?

let's refer to this person as Z.

Why is Z so scary? I've known Z for quite some time. Z can be so nice when we are in front of every1. Z is a person with a lot of admirer, a lot of friends...etc. Shouldn't Z be a lovable person, or at least a kind hearted one? I don't understand... How can Z be so scary? So pretensive! So fake! It's so obvious that Z don't like me. When there's no1, Z and me only(not in public though) Z will talk another way(very rude-as if i owe Z the whole world), anything i ask i'll get the coldest answer i could ever get from any1! Why? Why is it so? Do people really change that much? I meant from good to bad so quickly? Or is that the real Z but i just got to found out! After a long time of interaction and understanding, we eventually know each other better and because of that a person that we are close with will eventually be intolerable? If it is so... Shouldn't human just isolate themselves! Well, then we don't have to face all these kind of problem!

I wish i could be myself like how i was 2yrs back. Cold, care-free, happy go lucky, don't care so much about others as long as i'm ok, be happy all the time doing my own stuffs! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

That time i wanted so much, so badly to be a person like me now, and now i want to be like me before. Human are really ungrateful! Always ask for something that we don't have! Sorry God. I'm just being ridiculous. Haha...

Sorry...

Sorry for what happened today. Sorry for what i've done. What on earth is wrong with me? I'm really sorry. I'm ok. I'm fine! My head is still attached to my neck and i'm still alive so i'm good! Couldn't be better to be alive!

Even though i got HD for my Latin-Greek Clinical Terminology, but things were rather different today. To my surprise! I really duno what is wrong with me. Well maybe i know but it's not something that i could tell someone. Not even my sister. So i ask every1 to stop asking wat happened! Just know that i'm ok now. That's wat matters i believe. I hope i didn't caused much trouble to others. I'm really sorry... Thanks for your care, love and support. That's all i need from my friends now. Thank you very very much. Love you all.

Love,
Lynn

Why m i the 1st to leave Malaysia for further studies among my friends?

Long time ago, i told my friends that i don't want to go oversea so soon. I want to stay home with mummy. Well, obviously, it didn't happen! I was the 1st amongst all my friends to leave home for further studies oversea!

My heartiest gratitude to my parents! Thanks for their trust and faith to release me off to study oversea. Without their trust, i think maybe i'm somewhere else now. Their faith in what you may ask? Their faith in God of course. They had total faith in God that God will take care of my future, and look out for me, plans for me. I might be like other kids who gone wild after leaving home, i could be like other people who stays up late doing something else and keep failing their exams! Well, thank God he had planted in me something! Spirit of 'Kia Su'! Hahaha... That had kept me on the track i think. Hahaha...

At first everything was so tough for me in Moscow. Actually Moscow isn't really that bad, it's just me. A girl that was born a few decades ago with golden spoon! Not rich family but everything was well provided for me. Definitely rich with God's blessings! I started off slow, but eventually, i keep up with the speed and everything turn towards a better direction.

Time flies by, pre medical course ended, i went home for 3months, worked a little, then came back for 1st year degree. Winter holiday i went back to Malaysia to celebrate Chinese New Year with my family. then now i'm back for my 2nd semester. Wow... Couldn't really believe that i've went through so many exams, so many difficulties, so many problems had been solved. Here i am now. Stronger than before. God put me in the right place. I thought it was a little to early for me, but it went on quite well. I'm more independent now, stronger, and tougher.

I really don't know why on earth God pick medical studies! No idea why on earth did i came to Russia, but now... I think God sent me here to sharpen this blunt knife (ME). Medical studies?!?! i've no idea yet till now. Seriously... It's not easy at all. Busy life, barely some time for myself. Exams all around, a thousand and one things to remember...etc. I'm still yet to find out the purpose of God in Me in Moscow as a future Doctor. Let's discover it together alright?

Things might be horrible before, but it always gets better. My advice for everyone that is fighting the battle together with me! Stay strong always! hang on to HIM! Trust him in everything you do. Everything shall go just fine. Sometimes He tells us and we couldn't understand or learn through the easy way, so He has to make us fall and learn the hard way! So be patient! I'm always here for you all if you need help. Anytime at all!

All the best to the soldiers!

Love,
Lynn

Another tiring Thursday!

Thursday is my worst day of the week. The most hectic and tiring day. I've got Anatomy from 9am till 2.10pm, then General Chemistry from 3.20-5.20pm. Urgh!

Had Anatomy exam today on digestive system, so as usual, i didn't sleep last night. Slept from 7pm till 12pm with lotsa dreams! Disturbing! Then finally woke up at 12am to study and stayed up till now 7.40pm. Owh... So tired! I need booster! So i drank white coffee specially brought from Ipoh to Moscow by Charis! Haha...

With a total mistake of 3, over hundreds of questions, i score a distinction , but still greatful that i passed my exam! Praise the Lord! All glory to Him. Without Him, i couldn't even imagine my results!

Went to Chemistry class. Ms Olga, my favourite teacher was so so so disappointed cos tis is our 2nd time attending class unprepared! Owh... My dear teacher, i'm so sorry. So sorry to disappoint you. I try not to, but i really can't cope with it. The schedule of mine today is really crazy and it's impossible for me to be prepared for class. I would really love to be! I'm so sorry. My deepest regret! I was busy attending to Anatomy, neglected general chemistry! I'm so dead when it comes to our exam. Owh... Spare me pls...

I hope i could improve more on time and self-management. Please pray for me. Thank you.

Love,
Lynn

Woman's day pot luck Party! Whooray!

We had a day off for Woman's day on Monday which was yesterday! So we decided to have a pot luck party! Food food food! My room 1433 we made 'Min Fan Gou' in cantonese. It's a kind of flour noodles we made by tearing them into pieces and cooking them in soup. Charmaine cooked some Green been soup, Chia Zhen and Gan made Nestum Prawns, and mix vegetables, John cooked Chicken i think it's 5spices chicken, Jackie cooked 'Gong Pou' Chicken, Brandon and Peh Yee cooked fish and omelet. It was indeed a great time we got to spend together! All fun and jokes! There were 14 of us in total. Surprisingly, we had it in Charmaine and Chien's room. Haha... Double sharing room fitting in 14 persons with foods laid on the floor! Wahahaha....

14 in a small double sharing room. Where's the food then??? Eh in the picture 13 only la of course, cos 1 is our cameraman ma. Who is it? Charis lo... Missing in action...


See... Charis is like chipsmore... Now u see now u don't! This time it's John... Our 2nd cameraman!




Here's the food we had laid down on the floor! So many! Can't finish! 2 pots of 'Min Fan Gou', 1 of it ended up in 1418!


Nestum Prawns by Chia Zhen and Gan
(So delicious! Unexpected! Hahaha...)


Mixed Vege by Gan and Chia Zhen


1433 very own 'min fan gou'! No more Min Fan Gou for party next time! Try mixing 4kgs of it. Hmm... Train ur muscles!


Gong pou chicken by Jackie
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Omelet by Brandon and Peh Yee


Spot the fish by Brandon and Peh Yee
(I've no idea myself which is fish...)


Chicken by John Chen
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Our left-over dough! Not enough soup d! Look at the size! bigger than my palm!


Charmaine and me with our super huge dough


wanna know how did it turn out to be? Scroll down!


Here, our 'Chadoughya' which means Charis, Charmaine, Chien = Cha, Dough, Ya=Kaya.
Creative people... Haha... Funny... I'm not in it cos... Hmm.. Where was i??? Sleeping on my bed... =p

Love,
Lynn

Berry Pie party!

We bought a berry pie to celebrate Woman's day! Look! So pretty, Nyummy nyummy! Hey watch your saliva! Don't wet your shirt like a 1yr old!

So pretty! Look nice, taste even better!

Add some fresh cream! Oh my... Heaven! More more... Give me more cream!

Look... My master piece!

Another master piece of mine! Wahahhaa...

Look at it... Isn't it pretty? Hmm... I had 4 different deco! Not showing the ugly ones! HAhaha...

Love,
Lynn

Makan Fellowship!!!

Makan Fellowship we had in Devi's. An indian restaurant which is considered one of the most expensive restaurant nearest to Pushkin(My hostel). We had dinner there for free!!! Oh My.. I don't wanna imagine the bill. Malaysian Fellowhip (MF) actually booked the whole section of the restaurant for 45 of us. Isn't that great?

Some pictures were taken during the fellowship dinner:

This is half of us only, some of them haven't arrive yet!


So hungry! At Last food was served! Nyummy... But can't eat yet! They wanna take pictures 1st! Argh!!!

At Last can eat d! Wah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

From Left : Zi Hao, Charis, Gan, Marcus, Me and Charmaine

Anastasia and me. She's just so photogenic! U'll know why in my blog later... Hahaha...

I was overwhelmed by that Camera! Gosh! Love those kinda cameras since i was a child! Nvr had the opportunity to own 1 because it's superbly expensive. Thanks to my senior BC Wong that allow me to play with that new toy!

Gals with their surprise Roses in conjunction with Woman's day.

The 3 unitmates! Love them both! Couldn't ask for better ones! They are simply the best!

Posting as Charmaine's Model... Aduih... I'm so ugly! It's not your skills la! It's just my face problem! I'm not photogenic ler!

I look so fat after meal... Ouch! Diet Diet Diet! Надо сесть на диету!!!

Does it matter? AM i someone?

Does it matter if i die today? Am i someone in somebody's heart? Will i make a difference in their life if i'm gone just like that today? Will they remember me 1...10...20yrs later? Or will i just go disappear in this world and nothing else will happen? Have i done sth in some other people's life that deserve all these?

Maybe i couldn't answer these questions. I'm pretty sure my family will remember me till forever, what i meant is my friends, the people that i know. Will it matter if i'm gone today and never return again? Well, i seriously don't know the answer to this question. So far i think i didn't do anything great for my friends that i would deserve such great honour to leave a mark or memory in their heart and life.

Maybe i should start doing something that will leave a great impact in other's life. Not to be simply in their memory only, but to help them achieve a better life, a new life maybe. Who knows if i'm able to do that? Only God knows, and here i ask that God use me and grant me the opportunity to make a difference in other's life...

Thank you.

Love,
Lynn

Confession!

我最近都不是很开心。一些细心的朋友都会发现到。不过呢，无论他们怎么问我都会给同样的答复。对不起，真的很难说出口。基本上来说，要让我告诉你们是不太可能的事。这些事情让我很困扰。我又不方便告诉其他人， 自己又觉得很辛苦。我也不知道自己能忍耐多久！ 咳。。。 恨不得在海边对着朗喊个痛快！真的很怀念在关丹靠近海边的日子！

我在烦恼的肯定不是爱情问题！别再瞎猜了！

我变了很多！不像以前一样什么都不管。活在自己开心就好的世界里！我承认我现在是个非常情绪化的人! 一点点小事情我都会很在乎，并且会影响我的心情！我越是关心别人，越是容易受伤害！ 有时我会叫自己看开一点，不然生活很难过。但是，我仍然是我。人的性格是很难改变的！ 需要受环境，人，等等因素的引向才会造成一个人的改变。I hope i could find a balance scale between the past me and the me now.

希望问题能赶快离我而去！不再让我困扰！哦天啊！救救我吧！

Love,
Lynn

Insanity!

Ridiculous! Life at the moment to me is all about insanity, ridiculous...etc.

I've got tough day yesterday... Hard to believe? Believe it!

I went for music practice reluctantly, seriously dragging my feet there. Very tired after having only miserable 2 hours of sleep, anatomy class and lecture. Lol... The lecturer thought i was sleeping in her lecture but hello! My eyes were wide open! The 1 and only thing that kept me awake was i drank coffee and for your info i had white coffee! i lean my head down to table because i was suffering from neck pain alright! Lame! and General Chemistry class after that. I was so frustrated cos i couldn't understand a single thing the teacher was talking about, no1 could answer, and no1 could hear me... Muted maybe... How on earth i know?!?! Ask the people that didn't hear or can't hear la!

I had a tough day due to certain personal reasons that it's impossible for me to share, my family should know what happened though. Well, things from the past we leave it there. We try not to bring it to the future alright. I'll try my very best to make things easier for myself and of course my friends.

When i went for music practice, i was very sad, down and reluctant. When Tim came, he showed me a smile and told me to smile. I tried my best to smile as much as i could. Not about being tired, i couldn't smile cos i was frustrated, sad, horrible, jumbled up feelings! However, i've got to put God 1st and my feelings aside. That was what set me off to the practice and eventually i felt much better, starting to talk and smile. They are really nice talented people that i was meeting!

When i reach my hostel, my jumbled up feelings came rushing back to me again. I decided to just ignore them and go to sleep. I was so tired that i could barely talk to anyone anymore! I couldn't even wake up when my alarm rang starting at 5am. God knows how long did they kept ringing. Haha... I woke up around 9.50am, knowing that i'm late for class. Wanted to skip it. However, i just went for it. Russian Language class. Horrible! A lot of homework that i didn't touch at all. And as i've expected, it increases in amount. Accumulations from the last week hws and this week's plus, exam for Russian language next week! кошмар! (kashmar- nightmare in Russian)

Anatomy teacher our beloved neuro surgeon played a 'prank' on us, make me stay up all night to study for exam and she postpone it till next Thursday. NICE!

Let me just count how many exams will i have next week. i think it should be 3. Well, i've got histo MCQ tmr, start counting from next monday, i should be expecting ONLY 3. Anatomy exam(postponed) on Thursday, Russian Language on Friday, and another Histology MCQ on Saturday. Haha.... How nice to survive all of those! For ur info, my passing score is 5! Less than that always mean failure to me.

Today, things turn for the better. I tend to think less about problems, not avoiding them of course. Maybe i worried to much. Hey! Where's that happy go lucky LYNN?!?!?! Guess the worst of pressures had took away the best of LYNN! I miss the old me! Maybe my friends around me miss that ME too... I myself m looking back for my return!

I hope all these unwanted pressures that i couldn't share with others will go away soon... I don't want to think too much now. Just leave everything to God. What was in the pass had become a history and nothing more. Nothing else i can do to change or modify them. I can just keep them in the past!

Hope all of you can stay happy as long as it could be!

To my lovely, caring family and beloved friends, i apologize for your lost of happy go lucky Lynn. Let's try together to bring her back ya! Haha... Thanks for your support and care. Love you all most! Friends and family really mean everything to me! If i would have drawn ur patience out of you, please bare with me there. Thank you very much! Appreciate whatever you are doing for me!

*Hint: Don't let me down or fail me! I'll feel super horribly sad!

Love,
Lynn

Challenging pathway to Success!

Tired, sleepy, stressful...etc. Those words are not even close to expressing the challenge that i'm facing now!

Indeed, medicine is the world most demanding course known to all mankind! Challenging, rocky... eye backs grow so thick, so dark... sounds like me turning into panda! Oh no!!!!!!!!!! Charmaine says, ' panda with doggy'! While waking me up from bed today after 2 hrs of sleep. Wow! So much huh?!?!

MR EXAM always make appointment to meet me. Owh... How i wish i could avoid seeing him... Sounds impossible anyway.

Taking a balance point between serving God and studies isn't easy at all. I'm trying my best to find that one point where i can do all these things at 1 go and yet still be able to relax! Man! I'm having 6days class, what you expect?!?! Don't be so demanding la!

I'm physically and mentally tired! Perhaps i should be more aware that I'M THE ONE WHO CHOOSE MEDICINE AND INSISTED GOING FOR IT!!! My parents did double confirm my choice of selection numerous times, and i was so foolish to be so certain of my choice! (Actually i didn't know what else to pick!) I should have insisted pilot course instead! Haha... Mum will definitely say no for that!

Aite... All i can do now is, persevere through all these hardship and look forward for a better life! BARE IN MIND!!! PERSEVERANCE prolongs increase as much as integrity does! Owh... It's reminder for myself! Not for any of u! Hahaha...

Enjoy the challenges!

Love,
Lynn

I'm a jerk! I'm sorry...

I'm a total jerk! I've caused so much trouble! So much insanity for my friends! So sorry... I think i've made some of you feel bad about something! I'm really a big jerk! I apologize sincerely for that!
I've made your life miserable. Can't sleep, can't eat, Can't study... I'm sorry...

I really don't meant to do that to anyone at all. Just ignore me. I'm sorry...

Just come tell me straight to my face if i've been a jerk to u! I'll apologize and leave u alone! Don't worry... Won't cost you a thing!

Life will never remain just a bed of roses! Will it?

The answer is no! Life is full of ups and downs, sweet and bitter. I believe that's what draws us out of our comfortable home and sharpens us more and more each day!

After a bed of roses, here comes my heart breaking, sad time...



Felt bad bout it yesterday, but getting better. Trying to let go and get on with life. Face the fact, look into the brighter side of tomorrow.

Live life to the fullest! One life, make it count! Don't waste it for nothing! Live it for Something! And yea! U know the answer! Live it for JESUS!

Love,
Lynn