4th Uncle - 四舅... In loving memory of LUA SENG HOCK.......

Received an sms from my sis just 20mins after i woke up tis morning, '4 gu passed away tis morning'. I was purely in shocked. No response for a few seconds. Upon recovery, i reached my hp and called my sis to ask more about what actually happened.

My uncle actually fell sick since last week but only went to see the doctor 2days ago. Diagnosed with heart failure, stablized. Doctor were to treat his diabetics, but only God knows that he was planned to leave us this morning.

My regret is that he still don't know christ. All we can do is to pray for him&his family. May peace runs in the family.

A little bit story about my uncle since this blog had been dedicated to him.......

He is a nice man. Every year during CNY when we are all back in Jertih, he would buy us breakfast... used to have like 3-4 choices. That time i was small, duno how to enjoy those food... Now... Haiz... Wait la... Few years oso don't get to eat once... Especially where my uncle is no longer around anymore...

Just recently... Last summer holiday when i went back to Malaysia. My parent went to Spain, I was left guarding my bro at home... sad case.... My uncle came to visit. He striked lotery... Came to Kuantan to collect his winnings. He asked me to buy him a blood glucose measurement device. Know what he brought?

20kgs of mangosteen & 5kgs of buah salak. his car was practically full of fruits only for me... Cos he knew that i love mangosteen! Hahahaha.... He is a marvellous man! So nice to his niece! HEhe...

Unfortunately, this uncle of mine don't like to take care of himself... I'm sad for him... We nagged him all the time, but never worked.

I just pray that he now rests in peace with God's blessings in him & His family.

God bless. Take care.

In loving memory of LUA SENG HOCK.......

Love,
Lynn

Love's Moments

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real!

When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us.

Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.

The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

Love,
Lynn

Friends... 朋友。。。

How people in our generation value friends?

朋友。。。 这两个字其实很有价值。但是在这个世界上，这个年代，有多少认真真珍惜朋友呢？

在这个现实的世界上，有利用价值就是朋友，不然就当着不认识你。太令人失望了！我问心不利用朋友，但是时常被误会。真让人无可奈何。。。

利用朋友的‘朋友’，就是说谓的猪朋狗友！为什么做朋友做到那么失败的？

有时只好关一边眼睛。。。为‘朋友’尽心尽力，虽然他们未必会感恩但是我问心已经尽我所能。

value friends as FRIENDS... Not as tools. They are someone very important, very valuable, not someone very useful! Don't wait till you lose them to start appreciate them!

Stay blessed!

Love,
Lynn

Testimony

I started learning 4guitar chords from a church guitarist Uncle David. He is an experienced player. All these while, i knew just these 4chords and nothing else more. Just before i went on mission program, i was told that i'm the only musician in the team, so i asked a friend of mine to teach me a few more chords so that at least our team prayer session won't be too dull.

When i was in XiAn, China, i was asked by Ps David Ryan to lead 15members in worship and prayer session, i was shocked. I tried to reject, but he successfully convinced me. I've learned 1 important lesson here. We don't have to be very good in something we were planned to do. All we need is FAITH & TRUST in the Lord. If it is His plan for us to do something, there's no way we can run away from it. However, if it is His plan for us to do it, we just try our best, and He'll do the rest.
Matthew 6:33-34 'But seek first the Kingdom of God & His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own'.

Although i wasn't very good and there were 2 other guitarist which are much better than i am but i was selected to play. I still remember 1 thing Ps David told me, 'You are a talented musician, don't be affraid, be encouraged to Praise& worship His Name with your gifted talant. Do not doubt the Gift of God'. This just strucked me right down. I felt the presence of God when Ps David talked to me personally during our prayer time. I felt the burden to do my part, or rather i would call it my duty. God has His very own plans. We ought to follow, respect&adhere. Everything happens for a reason. No matter is it good or bad, just trust in the Lord and move on. We Shall be blessed!

Now, i will try to serve our Lord Almighty with the talant that He had blessed me with. If we don't maximize His blessings, we will one day lose them! Just bare in mind that our God is a Great God! He won't give us something we can't manage! It's either that we refuse to try, or we didn't try hard enough.

I used to think that i can play piano and that's all. Now, i'm proud to say that i can lead in both piano and guitar. This is not to show off or anything alike. I'm just trying to tell everyone that don't hide the gifts of God in your life. If you hide it long enough, God will take it back. Till then, you'll regret and complaint. Think back... What have you done for God? He had died on the cross for our sins and our disobedience! There's no way to repay Him! The only thing we should do now is to adhere to His calling, obey His words.

Pray and trust the Lord for everything!

I had financial issues before i went to China. I couldn't come out such a huge amount of money. I can't do anything practically. I just leave the problems to God. He had a way if He wants me in China. I just went by faith. Here i am now, completed the mission prog successfully! All problems had been solved! Praise the Lord for His Mercy & Blessings!

May God bless you all!

Love,
Lynn

China Mission Trip 2009

JOY Team joins China Heart for Mission in XiAn, China. Team Name : Mercy Team.

Team members consists of:
David Ryan(Australian)
Bev (Aus)
Vivieane(Aus)
Glen (Aus)
Bunny (UK)
Aaron (UK)
Lois (UK)
Ros (UK)
John (UK)
Nichola (Wales)
Susan (Germany)
Isaac Siow (Msia)
Valynne (Msia)
Charmaine Gan (Msia)
Soo Ying (Msia)
Chin Ling (Msia)
Calviny (Msia)

1st weekend in XiAn, Shaanxi Province, China.
We spent some time getting acquainted with all the team members, worship session...etc. Bev house was a blessing to us. We are all able to gather&have some fun. Local foods were really different. Sour cold noodles seemed famous... We tried but i'm still not used to it till today... I still prefer our curry noodles... HAhaha... But just try everything for once... Just for the experience.

We also visited the Drum Tower right at the center of XiAn City.

Monday (27th July 2009)
Off we went to a village in Fu Ping. It's quite far away... almost 3-4hrs away from XiAn City. We settled in a local hotel, quite big but i was a lil shocked to find out my room don't have an attached bathroom. Toilet located 1 floor above, and bathroom 1 floor below... Oh My... Not nice ok...! I've got Susan from Germany as my roommate.... Well... She sleeps fairly early and all i do is disturb her sleep cos i sleep late... Kesian her...

Tuesday (28th July 2009)
woke up at 6am s usual, 7am-breakfast, 8am-hopped on our mini bus and went to get some paint. 9am- Off we go to Dr School. Dr School is a project founded by China Heart in 博士学院. We were there to wash, scrap and paint the school. Focused mainly to beautify the school compound.

Thursday (30th July 2009)
Team 1 had the opportunity to play&spend time with the school kids. While team 2 continue painting & finish up our job.

Friday (31 July 2009)
Team 2 had the chance to spend some time with the kids. Due to the well done task completed by team 1 the day before, we had kids from other school in the afternoon. Most of us were all wet except the kids and Calviny. Lucky but no fun lo! Thanks to Aaron and Isaac that we were wet!
Had foot massage complementary of Glen our 'Lao ban'. It was really a fun lifetime experience! Amazingly lovely!

I was given the opportunity to lead worship with Guitar by Ps David. My pleasure... so nervous... Tension! Joker... I know so little bout guitar but was given such great honour! Thank God for His guidance and wisdom, i managed to pull it through. Thanks for the great opportunity!

Well, i guess i broke the record of being the cleanest painter in the whole team. ;D

Saturday (1st Aug 2009)
We left around 11am back to XiAn. Felt reluctant to leave that place. Kids actually asked us when were we leaving and will we come back again. I personally would love to go back to visit them in XiAn. They are really lovely kids... Miss them! Reached Si Rong Sang Ye Jiu Dian around evening. Can't really remember wat time but not so important. So Worn out... Didn't wanna go for dinner but was dragged by Princess Charmaine... Haiz... Wat to do rite... ahahaha... Btw, my toilet in 802 can't lock eh... Thank God My roomie was Charmaine. Hahaha... At least she won't peep! Hahaha....

Sunday (2nd Aug 2009)
We had our very own short worship session in Bev's apartment. Then lunch, then we went to Terra Cotta Warriors '兵马俑'. Weather was so so hot! I was in a rather moody mood. Plus certain external factors.. Would prefer not to comment further...

Monday (3rd Aug 2009)
Mercy team was split into 2. 4 of them went to visit the children which are supported by China Heart in a rural area. The rest of us went to visit a 阳虎boarding school on a mountain. That place was magnificent! Eye-capturing scenery caught me stunned. The 'rapid' in the river was so beautiful! I love that place so much except for the school's toilet. The principal of the school Mr Tiger actually arranged a team of cameramans to record our trip there, and he also bought great lunch for us. This is the 1st time i enjoyed lunch so much in China with great scenery and great food!

Tuesday (4th Aug 2009)
It's the 2nd day we spent time with the school kids here. They had some great games which i failed to join cos i had diarrhea, bad diarrhea which started after lunch. My nightmare! The worst experience one could get in a toilet full of maggots... Ewh... Disgusting! Thank God for my beautiful toilet at home and in hotel!

We were given great honour and respect before we left&while we exit the school compound. The whole school marched and saluted us. 3 of their trainers marched, saluted us accompanied by National Anthem of China. We were asked to sign their flag of honour. Mr Tiger gave each of us a pen holder which is very beautiful, a Terra Cotta Warrior pen, and a DVD which was recorded on the 1st day of our visit here. Later at the end of the day, we were escorted into the van provided. All of the students&teachers of the school lined up by the gate to send us off. I personally was thrilled, it was the greatest honour one school could give to a group of foreigners that came just to visit and didn't do much at all. We were not worthy of their great honour at all.... God's blessings was overpouring...

Wednesday (5th Aug 2009)
I had horrible diarrhea. All i could do is stay in the room and bed rest. I missed all the opportunity to visit XiAn. They all went to the City Wall, Walked around.. I really don't know wat they did there. I had Kang Si Fu instant noodles for lunch, just a few bites and had worst diarrhea condition after that. Could eat at all. Skipped all 3 meals. Ate all kinds of medicine but non worked.

Thursday (6th Aug 2009)
Our last day in XiAn. Early morning, Charmaine, Soo Ying and me went out to a nearby shopping mall to get some souvenirs. Can't find any so we split. Charmaine went on alone to look out some clothings for her family while Soo Ying and me went to another shopping mall by cab. I was having low glucose i suppose cos i was a lil dizzy. I just persevere through, get some walnuts, peaches while Soo Ying got some stamps. We met halfway and went back to hotel by cab. 11am, we set off to Airport as our flight is 12.40pm.

We went on 2 cabs, my cab reached early for check-in but the other cab wasn't there. We made a few calls and found out that they reached 30mins earlier but was left in another different terminal. Gosh... Thank God for His blessings. We were just in time to check-in, but unfortunately, our luggage didn't manage. We had to rush to the gate. When we were at the plane, some of us had our luggage placed in the luggage compartment at the underpart of the plane. Mine was too small so they suggested that i keep it with me. Thank God i have my teammates to carry it for me.

I was still suffering from Diarrhea all the way back. Eat just a lil and i'm in trouble. Took more medicine but yet non worked.

Landed in KLIA a lil later than scheduled. Parted from each other around 11pm. Chin Ling, Soo Ying, Charmaine followed me back. We had supper and went back home to rest. I ate something, went home having diarrhea, took new medicine and went to sleep. Recovered the next day! Miracle of God! Thank God for recovery after so many days of suffering!

That's the shortest summary i could come out with out of my 2weeks Mission Trip in China. I wish that this will bless your life!

God bless.

Love,
Lynn

Summer Holiday 2009...

It's been 1 and a half months since i was back in Malaysia. Went to China for mission trip which i'll talk more in details in my next blog.

1 and a half months seemed so short... 1 week after i came back to Kuantan, my parents left for Barcelona, Spain. They went off for 3weeks and a week after they were back i went to China for mission trip. That's 2 weeks and then i came bac on the 6th. Reached KL at night then went for some supper then back home. Saturday, shopping day after dropping off Charmaine at Pudu Bus Station after marvelous breakfast at Petalling Street.

Shopping in Sungai Wang is a waste of time. Spent a whole day gaining nothing but tiredness. Came back empty handed and full of disappointments. Sunday, Shopping day again after amazing breakfast by Mummy... We went to 1Utama. Oh my... 1st 5mins in the mall and we are already testing out clothings in the fitting room! Gosh! Love that!

Around 6pm, we are almost done shopping... So happy! Cos i've bought a lot! Wahahaha.... Well, call me a shopaholic by all means!

Came back to Kuantan, went for Dental check up. The doctor did a horrible job replacing my old filling! So disappointed! He is a specialist! Oh my... Horrible! Going for a 2nd consult soon cos it's giving me some prob and it actually hurts... The worst part is... I can see the horrible job with my bare eyes! How much worst could that be? Hmph!

A lot of things more to be done, but i'm really so reluctant to get them done. That just means that i'm busy but i'm bored.... Why reluctant you may ask... Cos i don't wanna go back Moscow so soon eventhough i miss all my frens back there... haiz.... hard to be grateful all the time... but... really... my life is so blessed! Looking back at those who are suffering from poverty back in China, pity them... our life is like so luxurious compared to them...

Love,
Lynn

完全被误会！

3个礼拜了，完全花在照顾弟弟。说他是为他好，但是我又被误会。。。好难受！ 之间的误会太深了，不可能一天一夜解释。。。 别人可能不明白我的苦心但是他们是我的父母，为什么重来不理解？ 为什么永远都维护弟弟？3个礼拜。。。我无奈。。。无能。。。我失败了。。。我放弃了。。。

我讨厌自己为什么不能闭上嘴，关上眼睛。。。当着什么都看不见，不管弟弟不就好了吗？为什么终是为了他而上了我与父母的感情呢？代价不会太大吗？

眼泪不停的流。。。心很痛！没人能理解我的痛苦，我的无奈。。。

真的很后悔。。。错了。。。 我不应该着样。。。 改变吧！可能应该改的是我！

心情糟透了！

My Holiday...

Super disappointed with my own holiday... M i really enjoyin it at all? I've got 2months... but my real holiday... not so long...

Almost 2 weeks back home... Did almost nothing... Bored... Don't know what i'm doing... Clueless... Freaking ridiculous! Not interesting at all... I'm bored, but busy. Busy but not very busy... There are many things that i wish to do... But i feel like there's no momentum in me... No energy... I just don't feel like doing anything...

The worthless feeling... making my life miserable... More and more miserable each day...

I feel like screaming up to my lungs! Can i do that? ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe this is what ppl call the stress unseen! This kind of holiday! I don't fancy at all!

Thursday, 25th June 2009

7 pm today, mummy and daddy left for kl... They are going off for their ...th honeymoon. They deserve it after all these years of hard work...

Envy... They are both goin to fly MAS Business class all the way to London... Then all the way to Barcelona... How i wish i could fly business class too... :)

May God bless them abundantly and grant them a safe&mercy journey to their destination :)

I LOVE THEM!!! THEY ARE THE BEST PARENTS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!

Love,
Lynn

Eating machine...

I feel like an eating machine since the day i came back... Eat and eat non-stop... Owh... Nvr heard that stomach hungry grumbling sound anymore... I'm so gonna gain so much weight when i go back... Argh...

Mummy was very happy to see me... Since the day i set my aim, i've lose 5kgs... 5 More to go at least to reach target... But i'm thinking of 10 more! Cos i can do all things through Christ that strengthens me! Yay!

Other than that, i had a miserable day yesterday... But i'm ok... I should be able to sort things out soon... I duno what i'm gonna do yet... But i'm fine.. I should be fine... 船到桥头自然直！Trust in the LORD!

I hope i can live my life to the fullest... Use my summer hols to the fullest... Mission trip, working, spend valueable time with family, studies, hometask...etc.

Please do pray for me ya ;) TQ.

Love,
Lynn

1st day back home in Kuantan

Reached home on Saturday 20th June 2009, at 5pm. ate dinner, meet one of mum friend's daughter, then went out with family for car tour...

1st day back home on Sunday... Father's day today... Didn't do much for dad... feel a lil guilty oso ler... Cos i didn't even noticed that it's Father's day today... Argh... Stupid me!

Went to church in the morning, helped out giving gifts to all parents... After church, met up wit Jin Jin and her mother... We went out for lunch together... Oh my... So full... Gosh.. i'm so gonna gain so much weight... Haiz...


Had dinner wit family.. nyum nyum... Bird nest soup... owh... Home = heaven on earth!

Super tired... Shouldn't have jet lag though... somehow... can't sleep till 5am.. Missing people... Haiz... Ended up watching drama till 5am... Until i slept... unconsciously...

Good to be home... Live like princess... But of course i miss all my friends! :)

Love,
Lynn

Fantastic day Full of blessings & mercy...

Monday, 15th June 2009.

A memorable day... A day where i officially completed my 1st year medical course.

Started out with love & care, proceed with rush and absent-minded, followed up by blessings, peace&mercy, ended with gratitude, gladness & tiredness.

1st and foremost, Thanks to Charmaine, Charis, Chien, Peh Yee & Paul for teaching me General Chemistry... They are angels sent by God.

Thanks to Paul for the hot water. Thanks to Charis & Charmaine for keeping my stuffs and bringing it back from Study Room.

Thanks to Charmaine, Chien & Charis for punching metro & Bus pass for me...

Ultimately... Thank God for every single blessings, every single angels, every mercy and grace He poured down on me... Every blood He shed for me...
Without God i won't exist. Without God i won't have such nice friends that had helped me tremendously... Thank God for everything...

All Glory to God... My report book(zachootnaya Kniga) has... hmm... let me see... The BEST result in my whole life! Wow! It's really total blessings from God. Without Him, nothing is possible... I had all High Distinction (5) except Biology - Distinction (4). Whooray!!!!!! I believe that my results will improve each year by His grace, glory & mercy! AMEN!

To all my frens... Thanks a lot for everything that you've done for me... From the deepest core of my heart... I'm saying, 'Thank you very much my friends'. I love all of you so much... Friendship forever!

All the 1st year coursemates... Congratulations upon your completion of 1st yr course. Proceeding to our 2nd year just means more obstacles... More stress.. More white hair... More exams... SALUTE TO ALL DOCTORS & DOCTORS TO BE!

Good luck to everyone... Wishing you all, all the best in everything you do, good health & good wealth!

Love,
Lynn

Friday (12th June 2009)

5 More days and i'm goin home for summer holiday! Haiz... PMS... Mood swing... Hormone imbalance... Messed up...

Shifted some things to M2 today... Thanks to Ira, Nalny, Vishi(My friends in M2 that helped me so much). Charmaine, Gan, Charis, Paul(Friends in M1 that helped me tremendously). Thanks to everyone that helped out... Really appreciate it a lot...

Things lately... Ups and downs... and i'm always the contra one... Helpless... Hormones are taking control... I don't wanna giv up but sometimes, when i tried to hard and nothing is working... I eventually give in to circumstances... i try to keep my cool, not responding so that non will get hurt... but... haiz... nvm... Perhaps... These are not so important after all...

When damages are made... They'll leave behind wounds... No matter how hard u try to heal it.... U'll still have scars... It's something one can't change...

Things are different for me... How others treat me... I see them well... Those that treat me well, i'll treat them 7times better(written in the bible), those who treat me bad, i'll just ignore them... Won't treat them bad but won't treat them well either. God says love your enemies... Yea... ENEMIES! They're not my enemies... They're simply my friends that wear masks! Changing their masks all the time to suit the condition! Hey! I'm not stupid! I can't see that u are wearing a mask. Take it off... U don't have to pretend... Just be urself... I can except whatever behind the mask! Stop irritating me with ur pretentious character... I dislike pretentious ppl... Treat u nice in front of everyone, but when we r alone together... It's another story...

I should say, we do not deserve each other...

When the world is turning 1 degree every 4 mins, we are changing too... For better or for worst... We decide, but GOD leads! Trust in Him! He'll give us great and marvellous things we don't know of.

Stay blessed folks!

Love,
Lynn

混乱

No1 remembers...

听到别人说的一句话。。。深想一层，是我态度有问题吗？

受欢迎的人，不可能理解。。。

虽然我很出名，很多人认识但这并不代表我很受人欢迎吧。。。

从小就有这个问题的存在。

我虽然一心一意对待别人，但是人们就不能接受事实。非想歪一边不可。。。

一心一意不忘回报。。。 很难吧。。。 有时我也做不到。。。有时候甚至要说服自己，不管别人怎么看，怎么想，别人怎么对待自己，只要对得起天地良心，对得起自己，就ok了。真的那么简单吗？
不可能时时刻刻都那么伟大吧。。。

可能是荷尔蒙又来作怪了。。。可能是累了吧。。。 好烦哦！！！

没有收获的付出，有的人认为很笨，有的认为很伟大，嗨。。。 我也搞不清楚。。。

所以。。。 混乱。。。神啊救救我吧！！！

Love,
Lynn

How OTHERS celebrate MY birthday for ME?

Hmm... Before this was how i celebrated it myself.. And now... My frens...

Firstly, i was forced to eat 2nd meal in 30mins in the Pushkin Canteen. The food was nice.. Except the liver... Ooowh... Gosh.. Dun wanna talk about it... Thought it was steak though... Urghh...

After meal... I was heading back to room, stopped by Charis and Charmaine saying that Chien's having stomachache, went to the toilet near to the canteen... Want me to wait for her no matter wat... Ok... Didn't suspect anything yet... but later, they went into the toilet and said that Chien is having diarrhea, i asked if she needs toilet paper and they told me that it's provided inside... Wow.. Since when Pushkin has toilet paper in the toilet ya? Fishy... BAD ANSWER!

Hahaha... Later, Charis accidentally opened the auditorium door. I hear birthday song... Opps... Cat was let out of the bag... Hahaha... I was lead into the auditorium... Dark... Then, light was on, Gan playing birthday song on the piano, Chia Zhen playing on guitar, Peh Yee holding my cake... Every1 was so lost... Then later on they start to sing birthday song... Ehm... Ok... Hahaha... Anyway, it was so sweet of you all. Thank you.

Was being disturbed as usual during birthdays in Pushkin! It's like a tradition... Was asked to play a song on the piano... No idea wat to play... Ended up playing 'Canon in D'. After tat, Paul was all of a sudden drag into the prank... Kesian him. After the piano session, here comes the vodka... More like juice... They were just being lenient cos we are having physics final today. Hahaha.... Thanks for tat. However, i didn't finish it. I had half of it, and the other half thanks to Paul. Haha... Kesian Him once again...

2nd part of my 'surprise' was held in Pushkin Park. At 1st was treasure hunt... Where i found my things missing in the morning. Asked every1, no1 admitted anything... worst of all... Was scolded by Charis.. Sob sob... I've been bullied!!!

Last thing hanging on the tree was a present by my roomies, Charmaine, Charis, & Chien. Thanks for the lovely watch... I love it! And it's in white! A bit difficult to keep it clean but i'll try my best to preserve it's ori colour! Hehehe...

Later on, i was tied to a tree, blind folded. Got cream session of course... what else... The funniest thing was someone asked me why m i so quiet... Ehm... Being bullied, what else can i do? Scream meh?!?! Then later i got untied, unfold, every1 disappeared... Haha... And thank you Chia Zhen and Jasper who untied me. Thank you Paul for the flowers. Thanks a lot everyone for the 'GREAT' plan...

I was all creamy, slippery, dirty, in worst condition one could ever expect. Chill, i won't take revenge... Just... you all are so going to spend ur birthday celebration dull and ordinary... Nth special... Hahaha.... ;p

Hugged Charmaine, charis and chien, all of them were dirty like me... Wahaha... Plus who else... Matthew kena in the lift, so did Chia Zhen and Sharon... Aww... So sad... Go do your laundry la... Hahaha... Kesiannya...

Went to bathroom, washed my hair like 3times and still smell like cream... Haiz... Smelled like cream for the whole day... Nyummy...

So tired, slept, woke up then study and prepare for physics afto presentation. There goes my birthday...

Thanks to everyone who participated in the planning and my surprise party. It was indeed surprising! Thanks for spending time even during final exams period. Thanks... Let me try to name each of you here...

My roomies : Charis, Charmaine, Chien
1st Yrs: Chia Zhen, Jasper, Sharon, Paul, Matthew(cameraman), Peh Yee, Gan, Jerome, Zhi Ren, Tracy, John, Zi Hao, Kelvin.

2nd yrs: Marcus, Jacinta, Andrew, James, BC, Jien Wey.

I hope i didn't miss anyone.. Thanks for coming even with notes in your hands... Thanks... It meant a lot to me... Thank you for all the presents... The heart shaped card by my bed, Thank you!

Thank you once again.

Love,
Lynn

how I celebrate MY birthday for ME!

How I celebrate MY birthday for ME?

I had a pre birthday celebration by watching 22episodes of HK drama. Fantastic huh? What a treat. 22 epi in less than 15hrs. Phew... I'm a drama queen.

Had some nice treat of can food for dinner at 9sth 10. Wow... Delicious... nyum nyum... With spaghetti noodles.

Got some good kisses from my roomies... Nice... So sweet of them.

Slept at 4am after reply a whole bunch of smses. So sweet of my friends to remember my birthday... So touched... Thank you everyone!

Went to bed... Woke up at 11am tis morning... Had a birthday bath treat! With ice cold water!!! Freezing while bathing... Then feel hot when i come out... Wahaha... Thanks to Pushkin for shutting off the hot water supply.... Paid so much for rental... but yet... Stupid Pushkin so kedekut! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not angry... Chill... Of course i'm chilled... Bath ice cold water can angry meh? Can get migrain only ma! Hahahahaha....

I better go grab my breakfast.. Hehehe... Mocha! Nyum nyum... Tasty!

Love,
Lynn

Greatly blessed...

Had my afto from Prof Antonov after a good drilling from him on my 1st colloq. Joker... Didn't study, forced to take exam, got drilled horribly in oral.. Thank God can answer. God had been blessing me tremendously... His mercy and grace guided me through tough times...

Now, it's up to me to fight for my afto! I had to get myself in 1 piece as soon as possible and do my project. I'll try my best to persevere through... Please pray hard for my return with flying colours to Malaysia & Glorify His name more and more each day!

Stay blessed!

Love,
Lynn

不一样就是不一样！

我看得出，不知为什么，感觉上就有距离。。。 你有在躲避吗？有点难受。。。 你的冷，真得让我不知所措。你到底在想什么？？？？？？？ 我很难了解。。。 我能尊重你，但是至少要让我知道你再想什么好让我好好配合吧！

I just had my physics colloq and got HD for my whole semester exam! Not too sure about afto project yet, have to go see Prof Antonov tmr... Sien... Histo exam(zachot) on Saturday... Urgh...

Thank God for His wonderful blessings! His mercy and grace, His Glory shined upon me... TQ...

Thanks to my frens who helped me out too.. Esp Charis that tested me on my physics b4 exam!

TQ TQ TQ TQ TQ TQ 1000TQ!

Love all of you! I'm looking forward to go home soon!

Had been amazingly blessed with all the great achievements! ALL GLORY TO GOD!

Stay blessed!

Love,
Lynn

Saturday - ( 23.5.2009 )

Had Histo class in the morning, cut my finger... bleeding non-stop... Came back from Kalushkii Mall after dinner, i purposely cut my blister, but didn't meant to make it bleed... had 3 plasters on my phalanges... Lol... What a day...

Had some horrible sleep in the afternoon. 1 hr nap seemed so long... couldn't sleep well, feels like lack of oxygen. Troubled mind, troubled heart... heavy... Feels like difficulty breathing... Dislike it when my feelings are in control... Tried ignoring and going back to rest, didn't work... So woke up and watch 'house'... All i did was fast forwarding all those episodes... Didn't know the story well... Not in the mood to study... Miserable...

Went to Cell grp meeting around 6pm... then went out together to Kalushkii Mall for dinner at KFC. Nice one... Felt much better after going out for some activities... Didn't think too much after that... Feeling much better mentally... Maybe i just need to relax and let things loosen up a lil... Mayb i cared too much... And even some small issue will hurt my feelings... Maybe just a simple word that others don't meant it... Maybe just a word of joke... I took things too seriously when i care too much... I'll learn each day... more and more... to loosen up... to put aside some unimportant things... let go... chill... care less...

If ppl dun care that i care, why should i care so much rite... Maybe it's a sign of me giving up on certain things... Too tired of it. It has been bothering me for whole sem... When will it stop? Maybe i'm the one who needs to call a limit to it...

Love,
Lynn

What kind of friend m i??

I wonder... What kind of friend m i?

Today... I heard something from a very close friend of mine. That after she talks to me... She feels like going home... The main reason was bcos i'm not frank enough to make her feel like family member... I duno exactly what she meant... But i'm super sure that it's something not good... something bad in fact.

Plus... Every1 is moving on... I'm the only one moving backwards... In What sense? What does it meant? I really dun understand... I wish she could elaborate more... I wanted to ask... Seemed like she's just too tired to elaborate... and i was too tired to wait...

Things aren't running too well lately, even if i do good in studies, or just manage to do well... I seemed to lose the momentum that i used to have during pre-med... Even i can't understand what is going wrong with me... Maybe sometimes, i just need a break, need some rest from hectic schedule... I duno... Shouldn't be like that... i really duno...

I've changed a lot... In many aspects... Sometimes, i feel like i'm a stranger to myself... Is this another interval period where we change into adult? I prefer being on the range rather than out of it goin to another one... Lately i find myself very childish... M i 'degenerating' as well? I don't know...

My friends... Why not you tell me? I would prefer if you could let me know who r u.. Dun just leave msg without leaving ur name k! TQ very much for your sincere comments. TQ.

Love,
Lynn

My Dedication..

I heard i scored 9/10 for Gen Chem.. I duno for sure yet...

However, there's a few person i would like to dedicate my results to:

1 - My family - Thanks for your love, support and care... I LOVE YOU!!!!
2 - Ms Olga - TQ for teaching me with all your heart... You are such a marvelous teacher! My best gen Chem teacher! TQ. I LOVE YOU!
3 - my friends :
Charmaine - thought me so much about Gen Chem! Practically all my info came from her. TQ Darling.
Charis - Thought me Gen Chem too... Esp before exam... it was so so useful! TQ.
Gan - Bioorg. it has all to do with gen chem... TQ.
Paul - TQ for the info. Everything you helped me with... The orders.. TQ.

TQ every1! I couldn't name all of you... In general... Thank you everyone that had helped me for my studies...

Here.. I dedicate my result to all of you... Besides Thanking God for my results, and placing you all by my side... Tis is a small gift from me... To all my beloved dear friends...

I love all of you so much! Every single one of my friends. Thanks for the encouragement... Thanks for the comfort... Thanks for everything! Thanks for being by my side when i need you most!

Thanks to my family that is so so supportive! TQ!!!

Without all of you, there won't be me... So... Be so proud of what you've done!

Love,
Lynn

Life is never a bed of roses...

Life is never a bed of roses...

Today we might be high on top and tomorrow the opposite

We fall and stand up then continue our journey of life...

Things can be so frustrating that we wish we could give up easily... Perseverance is what we did We don't give up today in order for a better tomorrow
We are future doctors
We sacrifice our time, sleep, meals, energy... In order to be a good doctor that saves lives...
We do not give up easily, we won't give up lives for sure!
We will try our best, right to the end of it!
Won't give up until the very last breath
That's what we do! That's our responsibility!

Things change all the time, even we do...

One thing my dear friend, do not look back at old defeat and thought we lose the race
Do not look back at old victory and thought we've arrived

Obstacles are just part and parcel of life...
In order to reach a higher peak on a mountain from this peak we are on, we need to walk through valley
There is no higher peak if there isn't valley in between
Be Strong! Stay strong! PERSEVERE!
I know we can do it!

Don't worry for God will make a way for you
He did the same for me, and everyone else

For every blessings from God,
Glorify HIS name!
Proclaim His miracle in our life,
Honour HIM,
Acknowledge HIM,
Praise His holy name
Surrender all to HIM
We shall receive more blessings!
Nothing less than what He promised!
In fact more even if we don't deserve it at all...

We might have won a battle for HIM today
but
be more aware that He Had won countless battles for us

My life had been truly blessed by HIM who is above!
He Knows me best, inside out!
I've failed HIM many times, but he just never give up on me
Never before, Not now, Never in future!
Trust in Him and Submit ourselves to HIM
For He has plans,
Plans to prosper us and not fail us
Plans to bring us happiness and not sufferings!

I love you all my friends...
Do not give up! Never do that!
Persevere through all your hardship today!
I believe we can all do it with HIS strength!

Stay blessed!

Love,
Lynn

Irony + Agony

We had Gen chem MCQ final today... Lack of sleep and the tiredness... We try to overcome all those, i personally had white coffee which cos some stomach discomfort to me... Just to try to stay awake, try to study however much i could and take the exam... Teacher had high expectations on me... I just love her too much to disappoint her... She's a great and wonderful teacher! I just tried my best and let God do the rest.

To my total surprise, my frens told me that i scored 9/10. Made me 1 of the top scorer... However... My feelings was jumbled up! In such irony and agony...

Friends around me didn't do so well. Not that i'm better than they are, not that i'm smarter than they are, not that i know more than they do... It's just purely Blessings from God!

I was happy yet sad... Suppressed feelings... I'm happy for my results, but i'm feelin the tension of the atmosphere... The sadness of the people around me... I want to be the 1 who comforts them... But i can't... I'm so so so afraid that i'll hurt them unintentionally... The way they talk to me, the way everything went, obviously... They were in horrible mood... I'm afraid to approach them... i don't want them to think about wat i got... I just don't like tis situation... I don't know how they think... I duno what is in their mind... I just can't do it... I couldn't bare the chance to make more friends hate me... I love all my friends... I don't think that i've done better than them... I might not deserve what i scored... I'm not proud of it at all... Don't look at me that way...

If you are envious of my result, shame on you for calling yourselves my friends... Deep down in me, i know that some are not... They are just too sad to feel happy for me... I understand.. Don't worry...

Things have been harsh for all of us... Including me... In such situation, i'm just so so lost...

I which i could be the one comforting everyone... I just dun dare to try anymore... 1 try in the afternoon had proven that ppl obviously don't wanna open up to me... They just don't wanna spoil my day... If i'm afraid that u'll spoil my day, i won't be asking at all... and even if i don't ask, doesn't meant that i don't care... Sometimes, situation are just awkward... Please understand... I don't know what to say... I'm sorry my friends for not being there for you when u need me...

Maybe someone else is more suitable to comfort you(plural), i hope things get better for every1... I hope you'll feel much better... I pray that things will go back on track for all of you...

Once again, my deepest regret and my deepest apologies for all of my friends in Moscow. Sorry for being such a lousy friend.

Love,
Lynn

原来。。。

原来人失去了才会发现拥有时的幸福。拥有时不会珍惜，take things for granted, 但是一失去，就知道，其实当初拥有时，是多么的幸福。现在没了。。。失去了。。。

事情变了，无法挽回，不可能变回从前，只能默默守护，默默想念，默默的爱，保守美好的回忆。。。

我指的不是爱情。。。我没失恋，别胡思乱想了。。。别问我为什么，发生什么事，我不会回答。无论如何，不该变得都变了，该变的也变了，这是没人能改变的事实。

在我听着‘There is None Like You' 的这首歌时，我的眼泪流个不停。不懂是感动，还是发泄心情。。。 但是哭完了以后，心情好多了。。。 这几天的痛苦，悲哀，伤痛，折磨，完全被我哭出来了。。。 可能我演盖得很好，没人会发现我其实都在耿耿于怀，不开心。。。 但是现在好多了。。。

我会坚强的依赖神。。。 继续让他在我心里排第一。。。 我所作的一切，是有原因的。。。记得，我从来不会无原因的做事情！

现在，我什么也做不了，只好让神父为我承担一切。依赖着他，可能就是我这一生最大的幸福吧！

朋友们，记得，当你拥有时要爱护，别等到失去时在感到无奈，遗憾，悲哀。。。

Love,
Lynn

Our Daily bread (Friday, May 15th 2009)

The min i left my blog to do my quiet time, i saw this in the daily bread website...

Quotes:

"To know lasting happiness, we must get to know Jesus."

If you believe Rhonda Byrne, author of the bestselling book The Secret, “The shortcut to anything you want in your life is to be and feel happy now!” According to Byrne, this has to do with something called the law of attraction. If you think only about things that make you happy, she says, happy things will be attracted to you.

Sounds easy enough.

However, the Bible says that “the secret” to life is something very different. It has to do with “the law of the Spirit of life” that sets us free from “the law of sin and death” (Rom. 8:2), not with the “law of attraction.”

According to the apostle Paul, the most important thing to know is “Jesus Christ and Him crucified” (1 Cor. 2:2). To those who are concerned with happiness now, this is indeed foolishness (v.14). They do not recognize the power of God in what appears to them as weakness.

The Lord created us with a desire to know what is secret. In His wisdom, He kept certain things hidden in mystery for a time (v.7). But now, through His Holy Spirit, He has made them known. And the secret He reveals has nothing to do with having happy thoughts in order to obtain happy things; it has to do with having the mind of Jesus Christ (v.16). — Julie Ackerman Link

There is a law that made us free—
In Romans 8 this truth is heard;
The secret is to walk with God
And daily lean upon His Word. —Hess

To know lasting happiness, we must get to know Jesus.

1 Corinthians 2:6-16

We speak the wisdom of God in a mystery, the hidden wisdom which God ordained before the ages. —1 Corinthians 2:7

I Know very well what i need to do to live a happy life, but would i be able to do it? Will i be happy? Do me a favour please, Pray for me.. Keep me in ur daily prayer... I'll let you know when i turn happy... And when it happens, Rejoice for your prayer has worked! May the angles in heaven rejoice with you as well!

TQ.

Love,
Lynn

Disaster!

Super moody and emo... My mood swings comes again... So menyampah! I tried my best to control.. Dun wanna make my friends feel bad like yesterday... Stomachache like no1's business! Took pain killer then rest in room. Today is my 1st time in so long that i wanted to go physics lecture so much... So disappointed... Looking out at the window... The weather is emoing oso ... Raining... Cloudy... Remind me of Monsoon back home... sob... sob...

I noticed changes in me lately... So weird, even i couldn't understand... My friends, i think they noticed as well, they asked me what happened, i said nothing... Actually... Me myself don't really know what is going wrong with me... It just makes me hunger more to go home... Stay home... Isolated... Learn myself... stare at the sky, relax, no stress...etc.

My stomach ache so much this morning that i can't even rmbr my simple text in class... Russian text... I can't tell my story... Was shivering but wasn't obvious.. I tried to hide all my pain... Get over with the class and come back to room. Took a pain killer the minute i sat down on my chair.... Can't take it anymore... My friends, Charis and Charmaine was so caring.. Thanks a lot my dear... They are just angels sent by God.

Next week is a compact, tough, miserable week... I'll have so many exams... So stressful, so tension, so scared, so worried... What can i do besides trusting God at this moment???

Tuesday - Latin (Zachot), Physics (Zachot)
Wednesday - Gen Chem (Written test Final) <---nightmare! Thursday - Anatomy(Heart and arteries) <--- Worst nightmare ever! I don't think i'll get any sleep at all! Friday - Russian (Zachot) Saturday - Histo MCQ (like usual) 6 exams in 5days... Lord please Grant me strength and wisdom to persevere and excel! Didn't sleep very well lately... May i'm just disturbed emotionally... I don't know... I don't feel secure all the time... Stress from exam plus being unwell... I really need a break! A break from everything... In a Month... I'll get all the break i want! No1 can stop me! My mind is really goin no where at this particular moment... 转牛角尖！There's many things that i can't put straight... My mind, my heart, my emotion... Normally, i would say that i at least have some EQ. Nowadays, it seems to me like i've lost it totally! Like a MORON! I always give advice to my friends who needs them, care for them, tell them to be happy... Lately, i think i need to tell all these to myself... For some reason that i can't tell... I'm disturbed... I want to be as happy as i used to be! Be in control of myself... What has gone wrong? What do i need more? My life is so blessed compared to others... But still... It's never enough! I'm greedy! I'm a useless freak that is greedy! LORD! My flesh are weak.. Please do not throw more tests on me... Please help me, lead me and guide me in all situations... I just want to be an ordinary person that lives a happy life, do good to others... Make a different in this world! Please pray for my studies that i could score well, concentrate and study. Please pray for my well being... Please pray that i don't turn insane out of this insanity! Thank you all of you in advance!

Love,
Lynn

Mind reader...

I'm like a mind reading device... just by looking at your action, ur response, i know what u r thinking... I know what is in ur mind! Don't have to hide it my friend... I can see it from you face, ur reaction... Save ur energy for sth else... I'm so disappointed... Every time i have close relationship with my friends, sth else will pop up... sth will come bothering their mind... Many issues... Rumours...etc. I'm so tired of this... I get a good friend, then when rumours come, they'll step back... That just explained how deep is our friendship... How strong is our relationship...

What we say, what we do, and what we think often coincide... Things might not be as easy as said compared to be done... We might say that it doesn't matter... But truly, are we very sure that it doesn't matter? Is it true that it's ok? I'm not convinced at all... Sorry...
I once tried to believe, maybe cos i'm a person that believes my friends easily. If you've build a foundation of trust with me, i'll believe you easily. That's why...

Things are not going bad, it's not going better as well. I think stagnant is a good word to describe... Maybe i did sth bad or sth wrong that things went horrible... I don't know how to savage... Maybe i should stop trying... Close an eye, and let it be...

self-protection

把自己留在室内，自我保护。外面的天气与人类时冷时热，难受极了！I tried to keep my sabbath holy... mayb i'm just not holy enough...

太多的伤害只会毁灭一个人的志气。虽然我还没至于放弃的地步。。。 人是善忘的，无可奈何。。。 我的耐心还没到极点，但是我以有点不耐烦了。。。 等待是我的‘最爱’！ 低落的心情，因该又是荷尔蒙的错吧。。。

我尝试了好多次，没反应。我问心已经尽力补救，更改，但是努力使终不算什么。。。得不到收获，感到不耐烦了吧。没耐心等待。。。 我有那么糟糕吗？为什么我每次试着爱人多一些，别人就会胡思乱想？你想太多了吧！想歪了！别人怎么看，怎么说，真的那么重要吗？你说你很想保护我，很想替我解释，希望大家别再继续误会。。。 有必要吗？只要我走得正，站得直，怕什么别人讲？世界那么多人，那么多口嘴，你管得了多少个？解释得了多少？顺其自然吧。。。 何必牵强？

我对别人传的谣言不太在乎，反而是我爱的朋友怎么想，怎么做！我最近心情真的遭透了！上下飘浮，仿佛tsunami大浪！

。。。不出门了，免得大家难堪，难受。不想你不开心，你见到我时连笑都觉得很逞强。。。 我还是留着吧。。。

My 'sam qing'...

I'm a person who dislike rejection to the max...

Being rejected and alone... My mood changed 180 degrees... Couldn't take it at 1st. Thank God Aaron came in and wanted to get something, some surprises for our mummy... It changed my mood. I focused myself on my mum. It's her day today! Mother's Day! Eventually, i felt much better....

Friends will reject, but family just won't. No matter how ridiculous we are being, how foolish we are, what we've done... Nothing could be closer than family relationship. Nothing more important than family... Family members won't reject each other! Won't push you away when u r being too close... Won't get angry if we irritate them. Won't dislike us for more than a day! It's a fact...

I love my family! I don't know how much am i willing to sacrifice for them... Only God knows...

A person that gets rejected too many times will get immune to it i heard... I'm waiting for myself to be immune to rejections... I hope i could get positive answers but in contrast, i always get negative ones... May be this is a way God molding me... I just hope i could hang on to God and let Him take care of the rest... My life is His... I just couldn't wait to grow stronger and more mature in HIM!

Rejection = pain... Find love to distract rejection... I've got mine temporarily... I just pray that either my love last forever, or the rejection will turn into acception soon...

Love,
Lynn

Dedicated to My Beloved, world's BEST MUMMY! Happy Mother's day!

To my dear MUMMY - SUSANNA,

I love you so so so much! However, my love compared to yours is so small... Like a tiny dust... Thanks for your love, care & advice for all these years... Even though i'm so far away, but it feels like u r beside me all the time! I love you to the end of the universe! I hope there's no end to it though! hahaha...

I've been moody lately... Missing home so much... Missing you and daddy, Vivien and Shawn! I love all of you so much!!! No one else will ever love me as much as you all do! Thank you very much!

May God shine His richest blessings on you on this special day! Thanks for the suffering you took to bore me in u for 10months, then the pain u suffered to deliver me to this earth! I've been through mischievous childhood, rebellious youth, and now still a naughty youth... going to be young adult in just a few weeks... Hahaha... Thank you for being there for me all the time. Thank you for guiding me and leading me through hard times... Although i get a lot of spanking from you...but not because of you, i won't be here studying medicine... I won't be who i m today! THANK YOU! I'll need to change a lot more of my weakness though...

Thank you for spoiling me... I'm so spoil! I get my favourite fishes everytime i asked for it, i get most of the things i asked from you. Although sometimes u think that i'm so troublesome, yet you bare with me and get everything done for me!

For all your sacrifices, i'll give u a different surprise this year! Something that you'll never thought of! I love you more that i could express myself... I wish i could hug and kiss you now... but too bad i can't fly back immediately... You'll have to wait for another month more before i could spend time with you... Wait for your surprise... It'll be there soon... I promise!

Once more, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

You are now officially the WORLD BEST MUMMY IN MY HEART!!!

I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love,
Lynn

Finally, your surprise!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WLkY6rfVMD8
Go have a look! Must watch la!!! =) Love you so much!

沉重的心情。。。是我还是你？

沉重的心情。。。我在犹豫，其实是你的问题还是我的呢？我好像只为你带来烦恼。。。尤其最近没看见你灿烂的笑容好久了。。。 但你在和别人一起的时候，就会笑得见牙不见眼。我真得让你那么困扰吗？如果我离开，你会变得开心吗？如果我离你而去，你会记得我吗？可能不会吧？哪个傻瓜会记得一个只会给他带来痛苦的人呢？

我很遗憾你没能告诉我全部。。。只能静静的找别人诉苦。。。难为你了。。。 我会好好检讨自己，并且深深想清楚，到底下一步应该怎么走，怎么做，怎么选。。。

如果有一天我选择另一条路，要牢记，不是你的问题。。。是我。。。是愚蠢的我。。。只会给别人带来痛苦，烦恼，麻烦，问题的我。。。

Disappointed lunch...

The last time i went to Pizza world for lunch it was fabulous! Today i went again... It's my 2nd time in a week. I was asked to go... So i went... The food was disappointing, the mood was awkward...

Sorry John & Kelvin. I felt so bad when they left without eating... Actually nth bad happened, they were late, and didn't get the chance to order more pizzas cos we were running late for Physics lecture.

I miss 'Forest'!!! a pizza full of mushrooms... Roasted mushrooms... Crispy and tasty! Irresistible! They said that plate was 'Forrest' It surely didn't taste like it! So i think it's not... Too bad...

Went to physics last lecture of this semester... Ended with Thermodynamics...

Being LO for 6 times in just a short period of few hours... 检讨一下 please!

今天我最后悔的一件事！

20分钟的等待。。。 没收获的等待 = 浪费时间 = 愚蠢

我到底能坚持多久呢？

不应该浪费光阴。。。 那20分钟真的能改变很多事情。。。

是我变了吗？还是你本来就是这样，我没变。。。 只是我没发现到罢了。。。 惭愧。。。

如果你能在另一个世界得到开心，不防穿上你的翅旁飞过去。何必勉强自己留在我的悲哀世界里呢？

一段距离中看见你灿烂的笑容，心想无论我怎么逗你笑，你也只会敷衍的笑一下。永远看不见长久的笑容。。。 我希望你能得到更多的幸福，活得开心一点。

勉强是没幸福的！继续勉强地坚持，只会带来你的悲哀，痛苦，困扰，压力等等。 我没要求什么。只要你开心，怎么样也无所谓了。。。

美丽的蝴蝶。。。 拜拜。。。

Long day...

We had replacement class for latin today... Bio class starts around 10.45am. Left hostel at 9.30am. Bio class, Chemistry lecture, then latin class. Left MMA building around 4pm. So tired... Went to Kalushkii Mall for some groceries... ended up with 2 cabbages, grapefruit, junk foods.... etc. Bag pack was heavy already previously... but it got heavier... Sob sob... my feet was boikoting me already!!! My muscles all aching...

Reach hostel, then started cooking dinner... Clean salmon fish... ewh! Slimy! disgusting scales... Lazy to clean scales so i just remove the skin... Wat a waste... Sorry la... So tired ma! Impatient d! after cleaning and cutting fish... Charmaine cooked salmon porridge, while i fried some cabbage with my rice cooker! Who say cannot?!?! HAhaha.... Rice cooker can do many things!
Had an extra add-on of Herbal egg...
2 dishes with fish porridge for 4 of us! More than enough! Eat till can't move... Still have some left-overs.

Had a great filling dinner! Enjoyed it like how i enjoy home cook meal... Seems like we are adapting fine to the harsh environment of Medical student's life...

Waiting to go to sleep while enjoying my M&M's and typing my blog! Hahaha... Now that final exams are around the corner... I know i need to accelerate and not break! However, i just don't have the momentum yet! Don't know what is wrong with me! Everytime exam oso like tat! just lose all the energy i need! Argh!!!

I always say i need to on diet... But frankly... How??? I'm eating non-stop... Eat so much! Like PIG!!! Haha... I'll try as much as my heart can resists good food la...

have a great & Blessed day!

Love,
Lynn

Didn't know it could cost so much misunderstandings...

I was sincere in giving comments. Didn't know that so many ppl will take offend over it... It's my fault... I'm sorry... Maybe i should say so much... Nothing to do with me at all.. My mum was right... If it has nothing to do with you, don't bother too much. Don't say so much... Although it is pretentious...

Sorry to both my dear friend Charis and Charmaine...

But always bare in mind that weakness means there are places for improvements. Comments are meant to build up and not to destroy. Criticisms are to destroy and not build up. So do not mix up the 2 of them..

If weakness are used as an armor to defend and push away responsibility, then we will never improve! Do not deny! Accept and try to make more improvements! That's the way to success. Gambateh! Let's grow stronger in christ!

I'm sorry if i've hurt any of you. My sincere apologies.

Love,
Lynn

My day... Labour day eh?!?!

Holiday la.. My family in KT for wedding ceremony... Dun wanna call back and make them miss me... So i didn't. Sobsob...

Every1 was busy in the kitchen cooking Nasi Lemak. Truly, it was kinda teruk 1. I've never tasted something so 'nice'. For RM15. If i knew it was gonna be like this... ERm... and because it's for Charity purpose i bought it. I got 2 pieces of big bones, a small piece of breast meat. The sambal was spicy and tasteless! Sambal is suppose to be either sweet or salty la! Generally, it's tasteless! Nice job for using the Butter chic's name to promote! Now u spoil your own name! There you go!
Bang! It's a real comment! Like it or not!

Toothache! Wisdom tooth coming out another 1mm again! Argh! Everytime it does, it'll come out little by little only! Sobsob... I've got a max mouth width like Charmaine Gan Sze Hui today! haha...

Nothing to do with anything from above:
I thought ppl do care, and it matters... But now that i know that it doesn't... I don't matter so i won't. We've spoken not more than 5 sentences today. I'm so disappointed! If you can't sense anything wrong.. Man! U really kayu la!

Felt so laid back today... Nothing much i did but watching some series. Refuse to study! Just copied some miserable notes... And that's it for a whole day! What on earth m i doing?!?!?! I've got exam on sunday and all i do now is watch drama! Stupid me! LAter complain no time to study! Procrastinate! Do it more la! Stupid gal!

Not a bad day... I love the things i did today... Just that i felt guilty after taking so much break off a day! HEhehe.. Lame huh? Lynn would nvr say this if it was in the past! :D I'm different now i guess....

Love,
Lynn

Happy Labour Day!

Let's talk about some serious topic now...

How to build TRUST?

In workplace, Trust is something important especially for promotion, pay raise, important task...etc.
At home, trust is more important as family members acquire trust to build strong relationship.
In community, trust is the key for true friends, solid foundation for good relationship. Trust is the key for leadership.

Let's get to the point... What should we do in order to be trustable?

1. Do what we say!
>> When we say something, promised something, tell something, make sure we can do it before we put them into words. Do not talk with your mouth only! Think with your brain 1st then talk! If we can't do things, do not make any verbal promise! When we said something, we do it!
DO NOT MAKE A FOOL OUT OF OURSELVES!

2. Show in ACTION!
>> When responsibility is given, work things out more than expected! Sometimes when responsibility is given to me. I'll do my best, i won't do a lot of explanation which later lead to many conflicts, but if i were to spent too much time explaining, i'll have less time to work things towards perfection. I know it's not right, but i'm still working on it! But when responsibility is given to me, and when i accept personally that particular responsibility, i'll put my best foot forward! No doubt! If you doubt me, you have to look into yourself! You have my words!

3. Work more, talk less!
>> Many leaders that i know personally talk a lot, make things so colourful verbally, but the result ended up colourless! 'NICE'! Leaders gain respect and trust through action! People aren't blind! They can see what the leader is doing. Whether leaders gain trust or not, it depends on how they lead the team. How serious they take their responsibilities! So start producing more colourful results and talk less!

4. Keep our promises!
>> 'Once bitten twice shy'! 'Cheat me once, shame on you, Cheat me twice, shame on me'!
Friendships are build base on love and trust. Sometimes we love too much, and people have doubts... Haha... Lame.. I know.. It's humans nature... When we promise our friends or family something, make sure we fulfill our promises! Promises aren't made for fun. They are commitment. Once you wet your head, you'll have to bare all the consequences! So let me suggest if you can't fulfill your promises, don't make them at the 1st place! It's a killing tool! When we can't fulfill our promises for the 1st time, maybe it could be accident...etc. But when it comes to the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th time, who else will trust us? This applies to family members too!

-The foundation of solid relationship is trust. Without trust, i could say that there's no relationship!
-Trust can only be gained, earned, and not asked for. We can't ask for trust! No one can and will give us trust!

When there's a will, there's a way!

Hope this blog will benefit most of us!

Love,

Lynn

Brain Damaging Habits!

I didn't create this, i didn't write it either... I just copy and paste it from J.A.M La Vida - a blog written by a group of medical Students. Source is totally trustable! Trust me! Benefit yourself today!

All of us have habits.Some are good habits but most are bad ones.

But do you know which bad ones that is killing your brain slowly?

1. No Breakfast

People who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level.

This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degeneration.

2. Overeating

It causes hardening of the brain arteries, leading to a decrease in mental power.

3. Smoking

It causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.

4. High Sugar consumption

Too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients

causing malnutrition and may interfere with b rain development.

5. Air Pollution

The brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body.

Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain,

bringing about a decrease in brain efficiency.

6. Sleep Deprivation

Sleep allows our brain to rest. Long term deprivation from sleep

will accelerate the death of brain cells.

7. Head covered while sleeping

Sleeping with the head covered increases the concentration of carbon dioxide

and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging effects.

8. Working your brain during illness

Working hard or studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.

9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts

Thinking is the best way to train our brain,

lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.

10. Talking Rarely

Intellectual conversations will promote the efficiency of the brain

Love,
Lynn
Start caring for your brain today!