Had some horrible sleep in the afternoon. 1 hr nap seemed so long... couldn't sleep well, feels like lack of oxygen. Troubled mind, troubled heart... heavy... Feels like difficulty breathing... Dislike it when my feelings are in control... Tried ignoring and going back to rest, didn't work... So woke up and watch 'house'... All i did was fast forwarding all those episodes... Didn't know the story well... Not in the mood to study... Miserable...
Went to Cell grp meeting around 6pm... then went out together to Kalushkii Mall for dinner at KFC. Nice one... Felt much better after going out for some activities... Didn't think too much after that... Feeling much better mentally... Maybe i just need to relax and let things loosen up a lil... Mayb i cared too much... And even some small issue will hurt my feelings... Maybe just a simple word that others don't meant it... Maybe just a word of joke... I took things too seriously when i care too much... I'll learn each day... more and more... to loosen up... to put aside some unimportant things... let go... chill... care less...
If ppl dun care that i care, why should i care so much rite... Maybe it's a sign of me giving up on certain things... Too tired of it. It has been bothering me for whole sem... When will it stop? Maybe i'm the one who needs to call a limit to it...
Love,
Lynn
Lynn
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